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Fourrr months later...I live!

Lotsss has been going on. Sister got married this past weekend. It was a beautiful wedding :) I've taken this semester off of school, and methinks that was the best decision for now. Umm I'm picking up a full-time schedule at work since I'm not going to school...so I'm sure that will keep me busy.
We've had one new addition to our church/family! Miss Adelaide Marree Shearer was born on September 6 around 9:30 pm (EST =P) so THAT'S new and exciting and stuff.

Anyway...that's really the latest news around here. The next addition could be coming around any second now, so we'll see about that. Just thought I would drop a quick note and let anyone who still reads this know that I'm not dead :)

This is a question people are asked quite often. Some people have answers all planned out in their heads, down to the days. Others, not so much. Up until just a few minutes ago, I thought of myself as someone who was in-between, but then I asked myself what that really meant?

Honestly, how can anybody even begin to try to predict where they will be in five years? It's literally impossible. So, I decided I had better just focus on the year right in front of me...2009. This year, I will turn 18-that's kind of a big deal. But instead of focusing of how old I am, all the things I'll have to answer for, being more responsible, blah blah blah...I want to fix who I am.

I want to be...a better friend. Over the last year or so, I have been keeping myself so busy that I have kind of tuned out all my old friends, and this makes me sad. I feel like I don't know half of them anymore. Our priorities have changed, most of us are at different phases of education, jobs, social arenas, etc.,...but I don't want that to get in the way of a friendship I know that can still be a good one.

I want to reach out to the people that I haven't been as close to over the years. A lot of my friends from when I was younger, I don't really talk to anymore. That makes me sad too. I would love to get back in touch with them, catch up on things we missed in each others lives, and all that. There was never any reason for us to drift apart...we all still live close together, know all the same people, are the same age...it's not like we don't get along at all...so why the drifting? I guess I just want to try, and be able to look back and at least I tried

Though school is definitely going to be a priority for me, why should I rush and cram through everything as if the world is ending tomorrow? Sure, things could wrap up at any time-if so, then it's meant to be. I guess I'm trying to tell myself to TAKE IT EASY! I can't even begin to tell you how many people have told me within the last few months that I'm trying to grow up too fast. For someone my age, I realize I've done a lot (certified nursing assistant, own my own car, work a full-time job, part-time college student) but I am always telling myself it's not enough...I need to and CAN do more...
But why break myself when I'm still new to all this? I think I've definitely hit the ground running...so now I can at least slow down to a jog and enjoy the scenery Riiight?

A goal of mine, within the next several months, however...is to get a different job. I thought I had found a really good job when I first started, but I now realize...I was terribly wrong. The people that I work with that are my same level (CNAs) are all great (mostly)...but those who are my authorities often make it their daily goal to make my job a living hell. I am thinking about looking into jobs at assisted living homes instead of a nursing home. I know that if I continue to work where I am now, I will end up destroying myself physically and mentally. The other day I had a breakdown....a lady died very unexpectedly one night not four hours before I came into work. She was a sweet lady, and was only there for rehab. Her death was a huge blow to everyone at the home. And though I've handled some unexpected deaths there already, this one was hard. I don't know why. You would think that each one would get easier to deal with, and for the most part they are.
But, aside from the deaths...the physical part is taking a toll on me. I've worked there for four months and I feel as though I've physically aged about 10 years. My knees, back, and hips are all suffering, and I feel it every day. My heartrate the other day at work (we use vital machines to record vitals that the nurses request that day, and sometimes I will take my own if I'm actually bored enough---this rarely happens!) was 102. I had had a terrible headache and was sweating profusely. And I know I'm not sick. And not to mention the average pulse rate is supposedly about 60-100 beats a minute....what on earth!! I'm not asking for sympathy at all, I'm just getting things off my mind. But...I have the feeling that the search for a new job will definteily be on here in a few months...(I owe the facility 6 months for paying for my STNA course...bah!)

Anyway..I feel better having blogged now. I completely understand if you are bored witless, if you even read it all!
Have a fantastic Monday evening and wonderful Tuesday. WOOHOO!